Let me explain a little.
Four times on April 8th, I wrote down my 8 things. Four times. Each time, they were different. Each time I felt like crap reading them back. After the last time I realized that I did not want to record them on a page and DEFINITELY did not want to share them here. It was just depressing.
Not that I don't think scrapbooking shouldn't be real. It should! It doesn't need to be rainbows and sunshine and fake happiness. It can be dirty and messy and raw. But I will be honest here... I don't want that on this page. The whole point of me doing this was to capture something about myself for my kids to "know" me a little later on. Maybe for me to "know" me later on. But I don't want to remember that I was depressed on April 8th for no reason. I don't want to remember that I had trouble conjuring up a single happy thought. I don't want to remember that I felt lonely and tired and helpless and lost. Those are not things I want to look back on. I will remember those things on my own without the help of pretty papers and Thickers. I will keep my insecurities with me daily, I don't need my kids to see my inner weakness on paper. I want them to know me, I want them to understand. I will share with them, so they don't feel alone, but that is to be done in our relationship, in our living together and in our interactions, not on my scrapbook pages.
So I left it all off.
My April 8th - Decided to keep it to myself.
But I still made my page. I think it actually is a perfect record of me on April 8th. Just wanting to keep it to myself.
But enough about me. How about a winner?? I think that sounds like fun.
So the winner this month of a $10 gift card to Two Peas in a Bucket is...
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Email me at saltyair05 (at) gmail (dot) com and I will send you your guft certificate code for Two Peas in a Bucket! Congrats and thanks for playing along!
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